Hello there! Since this is my first blog entry, I thought I would take the opportunity to tell you a little bit about my story.
The only way for you to get to know me is for me to tell you about my background and then you decide if what I have to say resonates with what you are experiencing too.
For decades, I hid my story and buried it underneath shame and guilt because let's face it, emotional eating can be sort of...well.. a private "thing".
So, I will share my story with you today, and let you decide if you want to discover more. The choice is always yours to make.
If you found yourself here on my site, it is probably because you are struggling with emotional eating habits.
I know how you feel because I used to too.
For 30 years I lived on and off every diet, I could get my hands on. I'm not even talking about your typical Weigh Watcher's Plan (although I tried that too), I'm talking more like a starvation diet.
I would go for months counting calories, weighing my food, and restricting every last bite. Then, when I was "off of my diet", I would eat like an unsupervised kid in a candy store.
Chocolate, cookies, candy, ice cream, sugar, honey, and maple syrup right out of the container. Then, I would punish myself with over-exercise because I felt guilty eating anything off of my "meal plan".
It was simply maddening, but I couldn't stop. I didn't know how.
Honestly, I didn't even know that I was supposed to stop. I thought that I had no other choice but to stay on a diet forever. I felt like if I didn't control every last bite I would be completely out of control and would never be able to reel myself back in.
One day, right after Halloween I was chatting with a friend and I told her that I had just eaten a ton of my son's Halloween candy and that I was never going to eat chocolate again. I shared how I had started this cleanse and that I was on day 3 of drinking only water, lemons, & pure maple syrup. I was also taking a ton of pills & supplements to purify my system again from all of the crap that I had eaten.
She looked me straight in the eye and said something that I will never forget.
She said, "Lisa, you have a problem."
Just like that. No more, no less. And then...… it was silent. (crickets...)
I thought "A problem? Me???" What problem do I have?"
She said "Lisa, the way you eat. Binging, then starving, then over-exercising, then binging again. That is a problem. I think you should get some help."
I had no idea what happened on that day, but something inside of me broke because I knew she was right. I DID have a problem.
I believe wholeheartedly that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.
A few weeks later I was introduced to my first self-discovery class and over the next 8 years have worked on myself from the inside out. For the first time in my life I like who I am, I like what I see in the mirror, and I am comfortable and confident in my own skin.
No more dieting, no more binging, no more restrictions, no more judgement, blame, shame, guilt, regret, or dishonesty. I am me, and I am happy.
And so the journey begins...Thanks so much for reading my story. I hope to get to know a part of your story too.
With Abundant Love & Positive Energy,